FFM visit UJV

10 September

Wild and crazy day. Went and took one of our HIV children to the hospital for a check up. Just receive so much love for her. At a point I had to held her with another guy to draw some blood. It was horrible to hear her cry, but you know it was for her best. I must say that is how I felt at the end of the day. I just want to scream and cry. And it felt like somebody hold me very tide. Then I realize its my Jesus. To say it is okay. In the mitts of all the pain and hardship, He is holding us very tide. Even if you full of fear of the future, He knows what is happening next. We just need to trust Him. At the moment we are in so much decision making season. Loads of decision about the future we have to make. After that we had to deal with a personal about finances, and then my highlight for the day. I treated few of the children for their wounds. One of the girls came to me (around 9 years old), while I was busy dressing one of the boy's wounds. Saying, auntie, we need to pray now for the wound. Me so focus to clean and dress the wound and she just brought me back to reality. She put her hand on his leg and her other hand on my eyes and prayed. What more can I say...........The rest of the day was problem solving and helping with accounting. Our staff is just amazing. Their commitment is never ending. I love them so much. Went late back to our place. But it was successful day. Loads of stuff has been done. At home no electricity, but an amazing meal, by candle light. After that had to deal with few internal stuff. Went to bed knowing I'm empty today, but it is good.

11 September

Woke up with the knowing I had to be filled with my Fathers love. Outside it is pouring with rain and thunder and I knew. He wants to pour out His rain on me. I prayed in tongues and then saw a vision. I was like Joan of Ark running to my Fathers throne room, tired and empty and fell on His lap. Holding Him tied. I cried and cried and cried for more of Him. He picked me up and carried me to a room, where He laid me down. While I was sleeping He was pouring out His love on Him. I started worship Him. He is my Father and nothing can hinder me from His love.

I just cont in His presence. He gave me Ps 45. Wow what confirmation. I'm His princes and need to fight for righteousness, truth and humility. Amen and amen. So confirmation about my vision. Thank you Daddy. Also scriptures for the day Ps 1 and Proverb 16:9 . I'm full and filled up ready for this amazing day. Lets protect truth and run with His love today.


12 September

Another day full of challenges. The FFM team arrived at UJV. Everything went well. The team was really touched by the children’s testimonies. And the people were playing with the kids. It was awesome to see. I spoke about the volunteers and that we need more people. Nobody came to me. I spoke afrikaans in the office. How amazing that was. Karin my sister emailed one of the south african guy to bring me peppermint crisp chocolates. It made my day. I felt at home. 2 South africans in the team. It was good. Then the accountant from FFM came to help us with the accounting program. It was tuff. I felt that everything was wrong. And all our work for nothing. I was really overwhelmed by all the wrong stuff. I had to check again, was I working at the right place in UJV. Didn’t I had to do something else.........and then the meeting tomorrow. All about the vision. I realise this one I need to trust the Lord. We can’t do anything. He will rain tomorrow and show us the way. That is what we want. His plans for us. Lord be with Luke and Suzanne. My head is spinning now. We had an amazing prayer time with the Lord. Just stand on His word. All the figures spinning in my head....I just know I’m doing all for Him. To glorify Him. Fight for righteousness, truth and humility. Lord we die in our ways. Your way. amen